personal moment...

the past couple of weeks have been an emotional roller-coaster. i apologize to all my readers who want to read about b*tch-y clients or bad*ss messengers. i promise...we'll get to that soon enough. for now, dispatch101 presents...a boy named wolf...

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i was shaking for most of the time. doing my best to put on a "man" face to not freak out my wife. i didn't want to let on how scared and nervous i was. we arrived to the hospital and on november 25th, 2009 at about 1215pm...wolf granville saravia came into our lives. to my right i was watching wolf going through the routine stuff that comes with newborns. to my left i was watching my beautiful wife being stronger than i could ever be. my head kept going side to side like a tennis match and then...i could not take it anymore. the knot was on tight in the middle of my throat...i wanted to tell my wife i loved her but couldn't. i wanted to share with her that he has dimples, lots of hair, big feet, but i couldn't tell her anything. i knew the minute my mouth opened i would lose it. see...i was still trying to hold strong for my wife.

i excused myself...went to the bathroom and sat on a stool just starring into a mirror. i completely lost it. i called my mom and could barely talk. i wanted to say so much but the tears just kept flowing. it was a next level of happiness that i will not soon forget...sh*t, i don't think i will ever forget. i came back out and witnessed my wife holding our little guy. it was the most beautiful site i have yet witnessed. i say yet cause im more than positive that my wife and wolf will come up with more moments in out lives that i will not forget.

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days later...im still happy as if it happened just 10 minutes ago. i still get knots in my throat. i still think back to my wife holding wolf in her arms. people kept warning me about losing sleep...guess what...it's true. i haven't had a really, really good night of sleeping. guess what? like i said, im still happy. i love losing sleep. i love waking up and holding wolf to try and get him to stop crying. i love waking up to give him some food. i have never, ever been happier about cleaning another persons a*s...ha! just yesterday my wife and i were changing him and he pee'd all over my wife...i cannot tell you how excited we were. i know, i know...the first couple are funny and and cute but then that sh*t gets annoying. i'll just enjoy them as they come and deal with the bumps along the way.

i cannot say enough how much i love my jess. she is the heart of this family. she keeps me strong and on my toes. i could not be more proud of her. i could not be more in love with her...scratch that, i can't wait to fall more in love with her.



i promise...we will get back to messenger talk in the very near future. so many things have happened in my life in the last couple of weeks. i've had to take a break. stay tuned...i got news on races, guatemala, interviews, and so on. for now, i just wanted to share with my 5 readers that i love my wife and we welcome our newest addition to this family...WOLF GRANVILLE SARAVIA...peace.